Love?

Hello. You can call me whatever you want. But you should know, I'm not a writer. I just want to try something new. Try to pour out all of it through words.

           

18.01

Hi again. It's me. Today, I learned something new about love. It's not new actually, it's just me who finally understood it. Now, I get the point of why we gotta love ourselves first before we love anyone else. We can't love anyone if we can't love ourselves first. Cliche? I know. I read this sentence that says "It's not worth holding on to something with someone who isn't ready or not in the right space". From the first time I read it, I know it was right. But I just try to deny it. So I keep moving and holding on to it. Until it finally broke. It broke me down and it hurts. So good. That was the moment I know how important for us to love ourselves first. I already love myself. I do. I can be honest with myself, I accept my flaws, my mistakes, and love myself even more. But him, the one that I love? No, he's not. He's not ready yet and he's not in the right space. And he knows that. He knows exactly why we didn't work, that's the reason. Do you wanna know the words that so make sense that I've ever heard from someone? Here it is, "I got no business trying to open up to someone when I can't even do that to myself". Guess what? He's the one who said that. Back to what I said earlier about love ourselves first, that's exactly what I mean. You all need to make sure that you already love yourself first. Because no matter how hard you try, if you can't love yourself, you can't be honest with yourself, you can't open up with yourself, you can't accept yourself as who you are, then it's not gonna work. You won't be able to love anyone else. You won't be ready. You won't be sure about it. You can feel it but you can't dive into it. Because love is not only what you can see at the surface, it's deeper than that. I don't like writing this much, we'll talk about this again. I'll see you soon. 

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